You hit record when journaling or talking into voice memos, documenting things obsessively—not for nostalgia, but to prove you’re not imagining things. Narcissists gaslight you until you question your own memory. So, you start keeping receipts. Sometimes, you even rehearse fake conversations in your head, anticipating their lies. You hit record knowing they will never hear it, but that’s not the point. You hear it, and in a world where your truth was stolen, hearing yourself speak it becomes a revolutionary act.
9. Hating Their Favorite Music: The Soundtrack of Trauma
Suddenly, the music you once loved makes your stomach turn. It’s not because your taste has changed; it’s because the narcissist made those songs dirty. They became the soundtrack of your trauma. You delete, skip, and mute them, mourning not just the music but the version of you who used to love it.
10. Overanalyzing Texts: Fear of Miscommunication
You type a message, then reread it, delete it, and rewrite it. You overthink the whole conversation—the tone, the punctuation, the emojis. You ask yourself, “Did that sound too harsh? Will they think I’m mad?” You’ve been trained to believe your words can explode things, that being misunderstood is dangerous. So, you live in delay, overcorrection, and fear of being too much or not enough.
Conclusion
If you do any of these things, know this: you’re not broken or failing at healing. You are surviving something that tried to rewire your soul. These behaviors may look strange on the surface, but they are your body’s way of saying, “I’m still here, I’m still trying, and I’m not giving up.” Behind every weird habit is a very sane attempt to feel safe again, and that is something to honor. It shows your resilience.
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